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[27 Sep 2010|08:54am] |
I feel way too stressed out than I really should be a month into school. I'm already feeling like it's finals, but this is going to last for 3 more months.
This morning I was riding my bike to school and I was crying. I shouldn't fucking be that stressed out about school.
Work isn't doing much to cut back my 30 hours a week. They hired a full time girl, but a part time girl doing 30 hours a weektoo just left, which sort of puts them back to where they were, needing me to keep the hours I'm doing. And to be honest, I need the money to save up for school. The studio work has become super labor intensive and between working, going to school and then getting my homework done means no time to take care of myself. I'm not sleeping or eating too well in the week, I'm never home, I have to always cancel my plans with friends because homework comes up.
So I'm most likely dropping my ceramics class. It's the last thing I really want to do, I've never dropped a class before. I enjoy the class a lot, but I'm enjoying it a lot less when I'm at the studio till 12am one night, and 3am the next working. It doesn't have anything to do with me graduating either.
I guess with the free time I could still work the 30 hours a week or help my dad move out of the house, which we need to be out by mid-late October.
Besides this, I'm really happy. At least that feels good. That I can be happy and still be completely stressed the fuck out.
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| mmmm, catnip. |
[13 Aug 2010|05:03pm] |
Tom and I went camping at Ricketts Glen. It was real nice. Perfect weather for camping and I guess I'm okay that it may possibly be the only camping I'll be doing this summer. We had a good time hiking around, even if Ricketts Glen was a little too family friendly.
I've been going a little crazy this summer concerning drugs. Well, crazier than I have been my entire college career. I got some opiate off the internet called Kratom, which I may do a little bit more of before the summer is up if I find a good time to do it. It has a weird effect on dreams, which is why I initially wanted to try it. The first time by myself just made me paint and then fall asleep and be talkative with Monty and Rena. The second time I literally rolled around on the floor for 5 hours and then fell sort of asleep. I was having a weird relationship with my body and my dreams. They were more like half dreams. And I felt sleep and dreams were this physical object I could eventually reach and I would dream that I was at the foot of my bed wanting to leave but not being able to because my body was glued to the mattress. I got a really bad hangover the second time. :(
I also dropped last week, which I said I wouldn't do last time I dropped. But I don't regret it at all like I usually do. It was probably one of the better trips I've ever had. Tom and I walked around the Art Museum and went to the Rodin museum. We also went swimming in the fountain at Eakins Oval. There were absolutely no bad feelings the entire time, which is also unusual for me. It helped a lot that Tom is such a calm person. It's also nice in general, you know, when we're not high.
I'm very much content and happy with life. Work is good, I'm getting into the groove of everything natural there. Working there has also made me decided to only only organic happy meat. All the meat at Whole Foods are animals that don't have added hormones, aren't ever given antibiotics, are grass and vegetarian fed and are cage and crowded free. Maybe that will make me a vegetarian eventually, since not too many places sell meat like this. Working at Whole Foods also means yummy healthy food for a normal price.
Today I got a customer compliment! The front end paged the bakery, asked for me and told me I might get a cool bean. Which are just stupid little customer service points. The more you get, the more prizes you get. If you get a lot, you get gift cards or one food item for a year free or a supermarket sweep or something silly like that. Whole Foods has some nice perks.
I also signed up for another Improv Movement class at Temple again. Super excited.
I think I'm okay with the way summer is going before school. Just chilling and hanging out with friends. No big art projects until school starts. I just want to do some recording with Eric and John said something about it too. But. Okay. Here's a visual of August so far.
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| Bah. |
[21 Jul 2010|12:39pm] |
Job at Whole Foods is ok. I get the early morning shift that starts at 6:30am. So come 10-11 at night, I'm pretty sleepy. At least I can wake up at like 5:50 and still get there on time since it's so close. I just don't know how I'm gunna do this shit in the winter. There's always the 43 bus and coffee addiction.
Thinking about an underwater camera for the last month of summer. They have a cheap $100 10mp one out on the market atm that I'm considering.
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| Whole Foods, what what. |
[08 Jul 2010|06:47pm] |
I got the job I was hoping for in the bakery department at Whole Foods at Callowhill. I'm so excited.
I'm excited to gradually leave Maggie Moo's and get paid more for work probably not as stressful. I get to work a 5 minute bike ride from my house and a ten minute bike ride from school. After a certain amount of hours, I'll start getting benefits too. I'll get 20% of all my groceries there and if I work there more than 6 months Kyra will get $200 because she referred me. They also gave me $80 to spend on non slip shoes. I got some more Doc Martens, of course.
It's a Farrell sibling sandwich of photos.
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| I'm gunna roll through the days. |
[17 May 2010|02:40pm] |
I did well this semester, considering towards the end I faded in and out of working. Especially those last two essays I wrote. Sheesh. I didn't even edit the one about the used car art.
I'm pretty much never home anymore. I have no idea where I am. Work, maybe?
It feels good to do nothing. I'm gunna do nothing until I start feeling useless and then I'll pick up a book and some art supplies and my camera and get cracking on some projects.
It's pretty much official now though. I love summer. It's my favorite. Better than autumn and spring.
This is a brand new thing for me. Summer was always good, but not best. But now it's amazing and I can't contain my happiness. My soul has been warmed and is smiling.
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| Steve- |
[10 May 2010|04:50pm] |
Steve! I got it fixed for free. So it's good. Apple did it. Turns out there wasn't any water damage. And now I'm the stupid one who was walking around with a broken keyboard for a year and a half.
Thanks though :)
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| Steve- |
[09 May 2010|12:30pm] |
Hey Steve, this is for you.
I was wondering if you'd be able to fix my laptop and I'd compensate you?
Remember my keyboard on my laptop broke like a year and a half ago? I was wondering if I bought the part if I could pay you to fix it? Is that something you might be able to do/have time for?
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| Sorry for complaining :( |
[03 May 2010|09:32am] |
It's the last day of classes. I have a 6-8 page paper due in about 4 hours. I'm not good at this. At all. This is what happened last week when I had to write another 6-8 page paper. I saved it for the super last minute. I have almost 5 pages done, but still...I procrastinated waaay too much.
I stayed at Temple and stayed up writing my paper till 6 in the morning. And then after falling asleep I woke up and threw up at 7. I hate throwing up. I haven't done it in forever and I'm not even sick.
And I left my car unlocked on Temple's campus last night. Stupid. At least nothing was stolen.
I'm a fucking mess right now and I have work tonight. I haven't slept, It's hot and sticky in the tech center so my hair is one giant fuzz. I'm all pale and pasty from throwing up. I have no idea how I'm doing any of this. This weekend at work was a complete understaffed stressed fucking fuck and I don't want to go back there for a long time. But I have to.
This is almost over. And when it comes I'm getting the fuck out of Philadelphia for the weekend. Sorry Philly, it's not you, it's me.
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| Update of Summer Plans and my Current Life |
[19 Apr 2010|09:32am] |
Summer
-Visit and stay at Zehava's house sometime this summer. At least for a weekend. Or something.
-Paint a series of paintings of puppies rolling on the floor.
-Go camping 3+ times in America. AMERICA!
-Go swimming a lot.
-Wissahickon.
-John Heinz wildlife refuge.
-Give some blood.
-Read some books.
-Clark Park flea markets.
-Cape May.
-Get a new job at Ritz Cameras.
-All the while take photographs.
Current
-10 images of modern and classical bathers
-10 black and white images of...something? This is a final project I have not thought about. I'm thinking of taking images of my Dad's house. He needs to sell it ASAP. Anyone want to buy a house?
-Dream book
-Camera as player project
-Art in the Environment Final Paper
-Listen to the Paul McCartney discography. (By the way, I can't express how excited I am about this.)
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| Air conditioning woes |
[07 Apr 2010|04:43pm] |
The air conditioning at Maggie Moo's broke again. But this time it's 94 degrees outside, which means it's 10 degrees more than that in here, if not more. My boss said this morning the thermostat read 103.
We had to take all the ice cream and put it in the back freezers because they all turned to slop out in the front, even with the dipping cabinet running.
It's miserable here. And I'm so happy it's not going to be hot this weekend because they said they can't fix it till Monday.
Maris and I are going a lil' loopy.
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| you iz lyk a cold cold stone |
[16 Mar 2010|12:19am] |
I now technically have a step mother and four step siblings. Slightly surreal, but not really. I guess because the whole thing is so distanced. It would feel a lot more intense if they moved down here with my Dad. But since he's still living down here on Mondays Tuesdays and Wednesdays it just feels like he's going up to NY on the weekend to see his girlfriend. Except now he's going up to NY to see his, technically, other family.
The wedding was nice. I think my favorite part was how everyone was making my dad late to his own wedding. Chris and I got up at 8 (when we were supposed to leave) because none of our alarms went off because of daylight savings. Then our cousin Davy had to stop to get windshield wipers because it was raining and his were broken. So that whole ordeal made my dad 2 hours late. And then Evan told us a story that someone had read to him when he was little about a Leopard who was getting married and his bird friend said he couldn't go for a few weeks until some berries ripened and his turtle said he couldn't go for another 3 years because he was waiting for a tree to rot so he could go past it. And the Leopard stupidly decided to wait for his friends instead of ditching them and going to his own wedding. When he was done waiting he went to his wedding to find his leopard girlfriend had already married another leopard and had leopard babies with him and they all attacked him. And the moral of the story is: friends suck.
So we've got Shira, Mier, Michal, Zehava, Yehuda, my dad, me, Evan. Aaaaaand Chris too. He looked very snazy that day, that's the only reason he's in this picture.
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[09 Mar 2010|03:06pm] |
It's really hot in here. (Maggie Moo's, of course)
The air conditioning STILL isn't fixed. That'd be okay if it was cold out. But it isn't. So I'm getting really stuffy and lethargic really quick in here. Only an hour left....
I'm thinking yesterday was my only real free day over spring break. Maybe I'll have one tomorrow. But I'm happy I fit so much into it. I even got to sleep in. :)
After work I'm going to take a nap and it's going to be fantastic.
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| How will I contain my anger when Delila plays "Unchained Melody" instead of "Lost in Your Eyes"? |
[21 Feb 2010|12:08am] |
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
This weekend mostly sucked. I spent it being sleepy and miserable. And finally when I'm ready to hang out no one else is. I hate being at Maggie Moo's- especially now when it's cold and no one is there, the air conditioning is broken so it's hot as hell and I feel like I'm melting, and the ice cream is melting everywhere, and the hot water broke so we can't clean anything, the pipe to the sink broke so all the cold water goes into this little bucket we have to dump out into another sink every 5 minutes. And I feel extremely under appreciated there. I should be getting paid more for the shit I do for that place. I do the same work as Evelyn, more than Jules does, yet I get paid $5.50 less an hour. So I've been kind of letting go and I've stopped cleaning things that no one else cleans. And I started taking Kyra and other people down in the basement and doing shit that wouldn't be tolerated anywhere else. Quite frankly, I've been feeling like shit and I'm getting frustrated and at the end of my rope.
I can't wait for winter to be done so I'm not sleepy all the god damn time.
Or will I be sleepy for the rest of my life?
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| My dad's getting married next month. |
[08 Feb 2010|06:10pm] |
My dad is getting married on March 14th.
This upsets me because it was originally going to be in June. Which would have been nicer. Oh well. I'm just a little upset she rushed things I guess. I wanted to get all prettied up with her daughters and be bridesmaids and stuff. But now my dad told me I don't even have to wear a dress since it's not going to be a big thing. Oh well. I guess I'll at least get my nails done.
I also filmed my art project today at Penn Treaty Park today. It went better than yesterday in the woods near my house. I structured it a little more. Plus the rocks were more stackable and I wasn't ankle deep in frozen water. I guess this doesn't make much sense to anyone but Chris and Monty. By the way Chris, I washed your gloves, they didn't get fucked up so I'll get them + 2 shirts and a tote bag when I see you next.
I forgot to give blood today. BLEAAAAAAAAAAHHHH. But good thing I didn't because I'm so sleepy and I have so much work to do.
My next project is Destiny's Child's greatest hit album to be in my possession.
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| a dream about 5 puppies |
[01 Feb 2010|10:50am] |
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I had a dream I was forced to live in this dorm with this kid who had to leave Tyler because he spent all his money on DVDs this summer. It sucked except he had 5 puppies. And then it was the best thing in the world.
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| Birthday. |
[21 Jan 2010|11:15pm] |
I splurged and while I was buying photo supplies and I got that 50mm lens I've been wanting.
I thought I wouldn't mind working on Saturday
But.
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